The thing that Vanessa liked best about jogs was that she could just get her mind off of things. It had always helped her to clear her head and get rid of any thoughts that were taking over her mind.
Yes, the last few weeks she had been doing pretty great. She was living her life and enjoying her newly single life. But the thought of Zac still made a sigh escape her lips. There was no way to put a finger on what went wrong with them, Vanessa had just realized she wasn’t into the relationship enough to be engaged. And it hadn’t been fair to Zac to stay with him despite that.
Thoughts, go away. Vanessa shook her head a little, pushing the thoughts from her mind. She turned the volume up higher on her headphones and continued her jog. There weren’t too many people out, which was nice because Vanessa didn’t run across anyone really and could just go ahead with her run when suddenly-wham.
Seconds later Vanessa found herself on the ground. What the hell? She took off her headphones and let them slip around her neck as she looked up at a tall man who was apologizing to her already. Without hesitating, she took his hand and let him pull her up. “Yeah, next time maybe you should watch where you’re going,” Vanessa told him with a slight nod as she rubbed her behind where he’d fallen down on.
Alex felt horrible about knocking this girl down. He dusted some pebbles off her leg and then looked at her. She had a familiar face about her and he something was telling him he knew who she was. Alex liked the tan of her skin, he thought it only added to her beauty. “This was one hundred percent my fault. I was thinking about something and I had my eyes closed. I wasn’t watching where I was going and I feel like an asshole for knocking you down. Are you hurt at all?” he needed to make sure she was okay. “Let me take you to lunch at least to make up for this.” he looked around to see where they were. “There’s a nice restaurant about a mile from here if you’d like to walk there, or jog. My treat, I insist.” he extended his hand again, “I’m Alex.”
Vanessa had always been a pretty active person, she loved working out for the sake of working out, not because she wanted to stay thin. Obviously, staying in shape was a pretty nice side effect, but mostly she just liked the activity. Now that the weather was so nice out, she’d started going out for hikes and jogs more often. Most of the time she took her dog but this Friday morning, she decided to leave Cici at home and just head out for a quick jog out in Hollywood. After crawling out of bed and having a bite of toast that she shared with her dog, Vanessa changed into her workout clothes -a pair of yoga pants and tank top with a hoodie on top- and put her long now blonde hair up in a bun. She put on her shoes and headed out for her jog, headphones on and blasting music while enjoying the warm sunshine.
A distraction. What Alex needed was a distraction. He wasn’t mad that Leighton was pregnant but more disappointed in himself that he was once again bringing a child into the world outside of marriage. Granted when Deb got pregnant he thought they would stay together but as the months passed he started to realize spending a life with her wasn’t something he wanted and deep down he knew she knew it too. He saw the way Deb looked at Ryan and in the end he had to let Deb go for both of their future happiness’ sake. Alex had hated that it happened right after Jessa was born but it needed to be done.
Since that fateful phone call with Leighton when she told him she was pregnant, Alex hadn’t heard from her. It was like both of them were purposely avoiding the other as they both tried to process what had happened. It was a part of life, obviously. You have sex and even if you use protection there’s always that chance something could happen and a child would be brought into this world.
As Alex ran through the streets of Hollywood his thoughts were pulled in different directions. He pictured what Leighton must look like with a growing stomach, how Jessa was going to react to another new sibling, how Deb would react when she found out. Alex closed his eyes and sighed. He wanted to be happy about having another baby but the more he thought about it the more stressed he became. He continued running with his closed, trying to calm himself down, and after a few moments he ran right into something. He opened his eyes to see he had hit and pushed down a girl. “I am so very sorry, miss. I wasn’t paying attention to where I was going.” He extended his arm and offered her a hand to help her back to her feet.
Alex hadn’t been able to process what Leighton had told him but he knew he needed to figure his shit out really quickly. Before he knew it the arrival of his second child would be here and while he had always wanted more kids he hated that he wasn’t married and having a baby with his wife. He cared for Leighton, had a love for her, but he never saw her as someone he wanted to marry. A simple arrangement brought on by lust and desire was now becoming something more and it scared him. He didn’t want to feel pressured into being with Leighton and even though she reassured him that wasn’t something he wanted he still felt uneasy. His past with Deb only added to the uneasy feelings but he knew he had to get it into his head not every woman was Deb. Jessa was the light of his life and becoming a father for the second time was exciting, he just needed to start feeling it more and less of the negative. It was a work in progress.
I think you should be excited and I don’t even know what’s going on. You should just always think the best of everything
That’s a pretty good way to live your life